The Big Search

Dionne Greenhill

We are here because we want something we've never had ...

We are here because we want something we've never had ...

We are here because we want something we've never had ...

I'm having a Peter moment. Lord, bid me come, but I'm afraid. Lord, bid me come, but I have a human tendency to look down. Lord, bid me come because I want to look into your eyes and see and do what I've never seen or done before.

I may drown.

I may drown.

I may drown,

But for one moment--for one milli-second--for one brief opportunity--

I may walk on water.

And if I walk on water ...

And if I walk on water ...

I may walk on the water of worship.

Why though?

Because I love a God that I do not really know.

And it bothers and hurts and aches me so.

That a man, a God, a Spirit

That I have dedicated my life to ...

That I have respected with my life as a sacrifice ...

That I have spent years of my life in search of ...

I can not identify in a line up.

Where is my Beloved?

Because the truth is

I can't find Him or identify Him on my own.

So if I do what I've never done

And if this brings me closer to Him

Closer to actually knowing Him,

Then looking strange

And acting wierd

Will have been worth it.